Paralyzed by Pain

The Scream by Edvard Munch

Sometimes pain is so bad, so strong, so overwhelming, that it paralyzes us.  We wish we could move.  We wish we could cry.  We wish we could scream.  Anything!  But, we can't.  We are stuck in our pain.  Each direction we look at to move seems dry and empty.  People talk to us, ask us what's wrong, and we have nothing.  Even if we say something, we feel it to be nothing, to be not heard.  We begin to feel like we don't matter.  The pain is too much.  We are no more.  There is simply pain.  Our bodies, once the physical houses of our souls, have become vessels for the pain now.  It has shoved our soul right of our own skin.  Like the painting above, we scream inside of ourselves, wondering why we can't scream aloud.

That's okay, because God can hear that scream.  When you have hurt so much that you no longer can cry on the outside, but have to simply imagine yourself crying, God sees those tears.  They do not pass Him by unnoticed.  He sees through our hearts.  He can winnow our thoughts.  So, don't you ever feel unheard or unloved, not for one second.

Hebrews 4:12 ESV

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.